Ok ok ok, we have not done an immigrant talk around here for a while. But do not worry, I am back! And I have a lot of great stuff to share with you all. But let's focus on the fact that my father is currently in American lands visiting me (YAY!). And, let me tell you, having him here with me, after four years without seeing him, after all the shit I went through and all the struggles I have embraced to build a life in NYC, is all worth it.
It is not all flowers (you will know it all on the next blog), but for all immigrants out there, you will understand when I say that I am SO happy to see my father. It has been four years since I last saw him and a lot has changed. I have changed so much that brought me complicated feelings and a bit of an acceptance issue (again, you will know it all on the next blog). It was a big shock to see him for the first time in so long, seeing that he has changed and aged so much and I was not around to see it all really hurts my heart. But it is all part of an immigrant's life choices and, for real, it is all worth it.
My father does not like to show up! The dude is a humble guy. Me, on the other hand, I do not like fake modesty. I believe that if I worked so hard to have what I have and be where I am at, I should be able to brag about it, post pictures, and enjoy what I have accomplished. And I am sorry dad, but I have to say, after working my ass off as a hostess, server, going back to college, getting my dream job, starting my company, hustling on a side job, and trying to do better in life, I am proud of have my dad’s visit in my penthouse in Wall Street.
As I said, it is not all flowers. The life of an immigrant never is all flowers, even when we think things are going better, but having my father with me and being able to show him everything I have accomplished in my NYC adult life has renewed my energy and has given me a new purpose: get the life I deserve even faster.
I have so much more to share with you and a lot of news to tell you all, but at this moment I wanted to focus on one thing: my dad’s visit and all the struggle I have been through. Let me tell you, it is all worth it! Even though sometimes things will seem like a dead end and you will feel like the only way out is going back home, believe me, you will be proud of yourself and be grateful that you stick to your life goals and did not give up on your American dream.
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